And that's ok!
Here is what I visioned ( feel free to bless my hart at any time).
We all get up in the morning in a happy mood with great attitudes and have breakfast together, while reading a devotional and sharing ideas for the day.
We then all meet in the bonus room , where my little girl will sit by my side on the floor and does some sort of building blocks activity. A.J. Would be learning his letters and be all quiet doing i,t so I can give Zachary instructions on his lessons for this morning.
After an hour we would all proceed to play a board game that lines up perfectly with today's lesson and even my 2 year old will love being part of rolling the dice.
Are you smiling? Me too, well now I am after giving myself lots of reality checks, talking to other homeschool moms and praying for wisdom and guidance.
Here is the reality.
I should wake up before the kids but this rarely happens since I never go to bed on time. The kids wake up and usually are not so fond of a formal breakfast at the table but after lots of please and let's do it we manage to sit all together. Each of my 3 kids have a different cereals they prefer (did I create that? ). Devotional time is usually interrupted by spilled milk, getting up about 10 times, reminding kids that the chair is not a jungle gym and trying not to laugh because my daughter is making special noises with her empty cup.
Well we do meet in the bonus room with attitudes and all. It's like the battle of attitudes.
And all those great educational activities I had planned, well after a while they turn into modern electronic activities. "Yes dear you may have your iPad, yes even 2 year old little sister". While the little ones have their iPads for the remaining time, Zachary and I get through the more focusing part of our lessons and some days we might have to postpone them to nap time, but most days we get them done.
The board game, well you can start laughing now.
Back to the pictures, that I browsed this morning....... I wouldn't change a thing. We learn everyday in some great way without even noticing we do until later, until questions come up.....natural curiosity and a gift to wanting to learn. Yes that is peace. Some days I have to go back to that place and be reminded of that peace, because doubts show up in form of comparisons, measurable progress that doesn't look all that progressed and questioning myself. But that PEACE it comes with reassurance, with a warm hand that holds yours and guides you back onto the path and a whisper that tells you "it is well".
He did some letters and asked brother about every letter while I was trying to do a worksheet. In the end it was actually really interesting to watch my oldest teaching his younger brother. It's almost like I got an "on the spot" evaluation. And I got my average 3% raise. More kisses and hugs to come.
Uhmmmm, well that happens once in a while when I loose the attitude battle and cannot take it anymore:)
We have a birds nest in our bird house and have been following them since the bluebirds started building their nest. It doesn't get better than that. Thank you bluebirds for choosing our home. The kids love learning about you.
Thank you United States of America for the freedom of homeschooling. This Mama is beyond grateful.